If I’ve learned anything, it’s that love and regret can sometimes be the best of friends. Where matters of the heart are concerned, I suppose it just has to be that way sometimes; there’s no going around it. It’s how we grow. It’s how we learn. It’s the one way that we can make mistakes and know that we’ll have the comfort of a safety net to fall into. Because when you think about it, love is ripe for punches of regret to your heart. Maybe you regret a date. Maybe you regret an entire relationship. Maybe you regret those angry words you said in the heat of an argument. Or maybe you regret the words you just never found the courage to say — words that just never made their way from your heart to your vocal chords.
I know about that last scenario all too well. But, I’ve come to a realization, thanks in part to an interview I did on Glamour’s Smitten last year. I’d had a crush on the son of a family friend since I was 13. We were the same age, but I was always too shy to tell him how I felt. It never failed that I turned into a blubbering, awkward mess any time I was around him. Then a few years ago, I wrote about him here, and although I didn’t use his name, he discovered I was writing about him. The 13-year-old in me was squealing with glee, but the woman in me was somewhat terrified. He suggested that we hang out to see where things went, but I froze up and chickened out. It didn’t help that we also got into a bit of a debate over the whole issue of looks vs. personality when it comes to dating. And honestly, I may have been a bit too hard on him, something I still feel bad about. It was almost as if I was letting my own insecurities stop me from trying something new. I was so afraid, so certain that there was no way he could ever see past my disability that I wouldn’t even allow myself to take that chance. Why risk being hurt, I reasoned?
So, friends, do you believe regrets are part of the package when it comes to love? What do you think regrets teach us? What is your #1 regret in love? What would you do differently if you could? xoxo
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