Dear Mr. Melissa Blake:
We both know I’m a planner. I like order. I like rules. I like things to go as we expect them to, as if that will assure us that the entire universe is in perfect working order. I sometimes can get easily thrown when something deviates ever so slightly. It just throws everything off-kilter for me, and I hate it.
So you can imagine the uneasiness I felt last week when I realized something I had never taken into account before — heck, it was something that had never crossed my mind. Not even once. It wasn’t so much a thought as it was a question. Not so much a revelation as a deep-seeded fear. Not so much a detour through the country as a roadblock. Well, you get the idea…
What if you’ve read all these letters by the time we meet?
I know, Sweetpea, that probably should have been the first thing I thought of when I started this series. I should have hired some sort of statistician to crunch the numbers and make me a handy dandy chart of permutations and calculations telling me how likely it would be that the man of my dreams (read: you ) would have found my blog, let alone the multitude of letters written to said man (read: you).
And yet, I know the possibility exists. How could it not?
And, the more I think about it, the more unfair it’s sounding to me. You’ll be walking into this relationship with your own little cheat sheet; you’ll have memorized every little fact about me, from my hospital fantasy to my love of Lifetime movies.
You’ll know it all…you’ll have the home-court advantage. 
I never banked on you having read these letters before. But I did get an “A” in statistics, so I know it’s possible. Maybe you didn’t read all these letters, but you might have read some of them. Sometimes, it all feels a bit too Back To The Future-y for my liking. Have you seen this movie? It’s one of my favorites. and when Marty McFly meets his mother before she becomes, well, his mother? Everything gets all jumbled and confusing — sort of like the past blending with the future blending with the present. Does that make any sense? I’m thinking you sitting next to me right now and having read these letters before could rival that McFly-level uncomfortableness.
But then on the other hand: What if you’ve written Letters To Your Future Wife? It’s makes me smile just typing that back here in 2011. I always thought that I’d be the only one writing these letters, but wouldn’t it be neat if we both had letters to give to each other? What a romantic way to start our lives together, don’t you think, Sweetpea? Until we meet… xoxo
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Work in Progress says
I like this letter! I wouldn't worry that your future husband is reading these and getting an upper hand because everything will be different when you actually meet. Maybe he wont like being called Sweetpea but will thank you for introducing him to Barq's!
SomeKindOfStyle says
that is such a cute idea … love reading love letters .. and making it in advance is very creative! xoxo
Melissa Blake says
HA, true about the name Sweetpea, Work….I wanted to call him something, and that was the only one I could think of at the time. 🙂 Plus, I wanted something original.
Melissa Blake says
p.s. thanks for the sweet words! xoxo
Cynthia says
Wow, your writing just flows and it's so beautiful and engaging. I can't wait to read more!!! I used to lie awake staring at the ceiling wondering what my future husband would look like, what parts of me he would love, etc. I would think about him and then think how I would tell him, one day, I dreamt about you when I was younger. These letters though pale in comparison to my day dreams. You are a lovely romantic!!!
rose says
I've been thinking of this thing too before this. I mean I do blog about the things I like and what I do, especially what I like to do..and I was afraid that he'd have me all figured out even before we get married. Then wouldn't that kill the excitement of getting to know your partner? Not figuring them out layer by layer, making mistakes and learning stuff unexpectedly..and engraving memories?
I want to write about my life, and yet don't want him to know everything.
Boy, I'm difficult :p
Liesl says
Your writing is always one of my favorite things, Melissa! I love the Letters to your future husband series and think these really are going to be so wonderful for your future love to read…and if he has already read them, well, then it will still be lovely with a bit of a surprise ending! 🙂 I too happen to be a planner and someone who likes to have order and know how things are going to go…I completely understand that!
Liesl 🙂
lisaroyhandbags says
I love this series and I often wonder if I had done the same thing if I hadn't met my guy when I was only 16.
I've always been a planner and over the past few years with all the moves, have had to learn to go with the flow and be much more flexible. I'm still learning.
thanks for following my blog and leaving such lovely comments xo
Erin says
I love this series, Melissa. The letters are so sweet. I hope you find him. And he'll be very lucky when you do.
Melissa Blake says
rose, i know exactly how you feel!
Melissa Blake says
lisa, thanks for giving me hope of letting go! i know it's possible, but habits are hard to break. 🙂
Sarah says
Have you seen this blog, Melissa? I think it would make you smile!
http://futurewifeletters.tumblr.com/
Melissa Blake says
Sarah!! NOOO!! I haven't seen this yet! I'm off to check it out now…thanks for the heads-up! 🙂