Confession: I may be a writer, but that doesn’t mean I’m always good with words. That sounds ironic, I know, but the truth is, I always felt too awkward, too out-of-place, too foolish to actually say how I really felt sometimes. I was always in awe of those people who could deliver those big, sweeping speeches that just seemed to leap from their hearts, people who, unlike me, were able to say exactly the right thing, in the right way, at the right time. It seems like I can never say the right thing sometimes – especially when it comes to guys I’ve liked. There are times I say things when I probably shouldn’t and times when I don’t say things, only to find myself regretting my silence later.
It’s never been that I don’t have things I want to say. I have plenty I’d like to say. And many times, my jaw would would drop to the floor after certain conversations, and I’d find myself thinking, “Wow, did you really just say that?” Other times, I become a walking, non-talking mime. It felt like it was so easy to become tongue-tied and let the silence make me feel even more awkward, you know? Here are some things I’d love to say, if I could…
*It felt like my heart was going to burst out of my chest on the first day we met.
*I knew it wouldn’t last with her. You deserved better.
*I’m sorry I never told you.
*I used to think that you were the one I would marry someday.
*Thank you for making me smile.
*Please don’t judge me on all those diary entries from my teen years. 🙂
Why is it that we sometimes have trouble figuring out just the right thing to say? Why do we opt to say the wrong things other times? Is it that we’re scared? Feeling too vulnerable? Or just chicken?
What would you like to say to your ex, if you had the chance? Your crush? The cutie you spot on the street every morning on your way to work? Do you overanalyze what you say – or what someone else says? Have you ever not said anything because you were worried you’d say the wrong thing? I’d love to hear… xoxo
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