Dear Mr. Melissa Blake:
I’ve been thinking about the early days of our relationship lately. Those early days are so important, aren’t they? It’s in those early days that you either make a lifelong, intimate connection or you don’t. Sometimes you know the spark is there immediately, and other times? Well, I guess you just have to dig a little deeper, you know? You might have to dig a little deeper with me, Sweetpea. I know, I know; you’re not used to me being so humble, but it’s true. You’re going to have to look a little closer to see the real me. It’s there, trust me, but it’s not Jennifer Aniston-obvious either.
But at the same time, I wonder: Do you think my disability is hot? I know that’s sort of a weird thing to wonder about, but I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately. I won’t pretend and think I’m as smoking hot as a runway model, but I’ve always thought there was a sort of sexiness to my disability. It’s rare. It’s given me quite the unique features. And every time I wish I could just blend in to the crowd, deep down, I know I’d just find that incredibly boring and bland. It’s sort of comforting to know that no one can say I’m not distinct, and that I can always be picked out of a crowd.
Maybe we talked about this — about what you thought about my disability early on, if you were uncomfortable at first, if you were worried about what you were getting yourself into. In a way, maybe having this sort of talk early in our relationship is a good thing. i won’t be one of those women who have to worry that you’re only with me for me looks. There’s something deeper to our love, a deeper connection that won’t fade with the onset of grey hair or the introduction a wheelchair for you; I’ll still be riding in style, remember. My disability will force us to go deeper, more quickly. to reach into parts of our soul that, yes, might be scary at first, but will ultimately bring us closer.
So how about this: I’ll be myself, and you be yourself, OK? No pretenses. No trying to be someone we’re not. Just honestly presenting ourselves to the other person, flaws and all. I hope you’ll like what you see. Until we meet… xoxo
[Photos via My Summer Twist]