Hello, friends. How are you all doing today? It’s almost time for me to leave for my second day of the outpatient program, and I must admit that I’m a bit nervous. I still can’t seem to concentrate on much of anything and am still feeling restless. I’m trying to stay in the present and not get bogged down by my anxiety.
The program itself seems to be going well. Granted, I’ve only been there for one day, but I’m learning some good coping skills. I’m also slowly realizing how sneaky depression can be. Mine was coming on for awhile and I didn’t even see it. Or maybe I didn’t want to see it? It’s hard to admit when we’re struggling, and maybe I didn’t want to admit that to myself or anyone else for that matter. But I’m here now and am trying to make the best of it. Thanks again for your continued support, and I’ll write again later. I can’t wait for the day when I’m back to my regular posting schedule. I’ll get there.
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SilverNeurotic says
I've been dealing off and on with depression since I was 14 or so and I'm STILL surprised when it sneaks up on me. Best of luck with the outpatient program.
Dancing Branflake says
Sneaky is such an accurate way to describe it. It seems that way for a lot of people. All my love and prayers to you.
Noodles and Waffles says
You sound positive. It's good to hear. Good luck with the outpatient program!
Renée says
Go for it! My mom suffers from agoraphobia, an anxiety disorder, for 3 years now. She feels every day better and better but she has a long way to go. Stay positive, really, someday in the near futur you'll be able to live to the fullest again! xo
Melisande says
i'm sending love and good thoughts your way. keep up the good work and stay strong.
Jennifer says
Big, big hugs to you! You're not alone on this. It sounds like you have a wonderfully supportive Mom and everyone that reads your blog also shares that same warmth and admiration for you, I know I do. Take care of yourself and go at your own time.
Natalie says
Keep up the good work with your program! I hope you get better really soon. 🙂 I know how it can be really sneaky. That happens to a lot of people. Hugs & Kisses! ~Natalie
Melissa Blake says
Thanks, everyone! xoxo
mylifereinvented says
Depression is something that no one wants to admit to when it is coming on or at least that was how it was for me. I never really understood how bad it would be until I was in the midsts of it. But it doesn't really matter because you are getting help for it.
Big hugs and keeping trying to be positive.
Carrie at In the Hammock Blog says
Good luck melissa!!
Diana Troldahl says
Sneaky is the perfect word for depression, it comes in like invisible fog. I know your task of taking the steps to burn away that fog with your soul's sunshine is not an easy one, but I also feel you are strong enough to take those mental steps, one at a time.
Love, Diana
George says
You are so awesome for sharing your life on this blog. I'm hoping & praying for the best for you. <3
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Hope you get better and you must take a rest or have a vacation so that you will be relaxed for a moment.
Kirin says
Love, Blessings and Peace to you Melissa. I know what it is like dealing with depression and anxiety. We all find our own way of coping and healing. Your are such a genuine,beautiful and gifted person.
mia says
Hi beautiful. I am new to your blogs. I've read about twenty of your letters to your future husband. I write them too! But I keep mine locked away, hehe. I am new to the blogging, too. Mine is all about natural beauty. Something you write about, too! So i thought maybe you'd enjoy it. Love,
Mia!
Brittany says
Melissa,
Let me just say that I am a HUGE fan of your blog, and that I have grown to admire you and your beautiful heart. You have shared so much of your life with us, and you have encouraged me so much with your posts.
I just want you to know that I've suffered with depression too and you're right, it's sneaky, and it's painful. I just want you to know that you are strong, wonderful, and vibrant– and you're already taking huge steps to get through it and that's the most important thing– you're working to get through this and you're not denying that it's there, even though it's hard to admit to being depressed, I know.
I think that you are, by far, one of the most interesting, lovely, captivating, and vibrant people that I've ever been able to read about, etc. Thank you for YOU!
And I just want you to know that you are in my prayers, and if there's anything I can pray for you about specifically, please let me know by emailing me at bsofyellow@gmail.com. 🙂
Whatever Dee-Dee wants says
Best of luck to you!
Ellie Rose says
Thankyou for your blog, after the storm there will be a rainbow x