How do you know where the balance is? In love and looking for it, I mean. I’m not talking about anyone specific here, so no need to start up the rumor mill. The scenario usually goes like this: First he backs off, then I back off. then I contact him and feel like a Bon Jovi groupie looking a bit too desperate. It’s sort of a sad state of affairs really. And sometimes, I wonder if my disability makes it just a little harder to decipher the clues and cues.
I don’t want it to. I wish it didn’t. But I can’t help feeling like it does. At least sometimes.
Half the time, this leaves me having this conversation in my head:
Me: Don’t you ever get tired of doing “the right thing?”
Me: Why, yes, Melissa, I do. I know exactly how you feel.
Me: Whew. I’m glad I’m not the only one.
Me: Don’t worry. you’re not. Sometimes I feel like I’m always letting my (well, ours) mind dictate our actions and pushing our heart full of pumping emotions further and further down into our subconscious?
So how do you know if you’ve ever really got all the rules down? Or how do you even know what the rules are, for that matter? If only there really were some sort of visible line in the sand that we could go by.
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