Dear Mr. Melissa Blake:
I’ve said before I didn’t have a typical adolescence. And sometimes, yes, it used to bug the heck out of me in high school. Why didn’t that boy want to talk to the girl in the wheelchair with the giant metal contraption of pins sticking out from her leg? Was I really and truly and utterly that repulsive and intimidating?
But, it’s all starting to make a little more sense to me back here in 2009, when sometimes it feels like I’m a teenager – feeling the feelings I should have felt more than 10 years ago and maybe acting a little like the foolish girl I didn’t get a chance to be in high school. Have I got it out of my system by the time we’re married? If I don’t, just smile and play along; everything will just be a lot easier that way. Trust me, Sweetpea.
I know it’s probably incredibly hard for you to believe, but I was once a shy girl. That’s who I was in high school. The shy, wallflower-y type. I always had my head in a book (well, unless I was just pretending to read said book when really I was staring longingly at Crush Boy during my freshman year in study hall, but that, Sweetpea, is another story…and, of course, there will be a story about that at a later date).
Suffice it to say, I was your typical awkward high schooler. And add my disability to the mix? Well, let’s just say I wasn’t burning up the social scene with my killer dance moves. I tended to fly below the radar. Socially, I was the girl who would come home from school and write in her diary, “I saw him again today. Gah, why doesn’t he even know I’m alive?” I had a core group of friends, and without them, I think high school would have been pretty boring.
Having said that, it’s strange because I’m not one of those adults who cringes when she thinks back to those fateful four years. I didn’t completely loathe my high school years, actually. In fact, where academics were concerned, I was probably the equivalent of head cheerleader. Choir member. National Honor society member. Editor-in-chief of student newspaper.
So who were you in high school? I’m excited to find out. Until we meet…
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