I’ve had lyrics for this one written in various notebooks (everytime I think of a cool line, I just write it down in whatever notebook is nearby), and as I assembled the pieces, I realized that this is the story of how I wish things had unraveled with Crush Boy. Don’t you have those moments in life where you’d just like to re-write the story, even if only the ending?
Everything always looked the same
Those houses with the white-picket fence, the oak tree with the bird nests
It’s all those memories in my mind
But by the time I’d get to your door, I froze
I walked back home, alone again, ’cause I’m scared to know
If my words would make everything change
So I scribble all my thoughts down
Hoping I’ll have the strength to turn back around
‘Cause I’ve come too far to let the moment slip away
Thinking too much about what I want to say
So I carry this note between my hands and my heart, hoping someday you will understand
All those words I’ve never said
Words like you and words like me and every little thing I’ve been feeling in between
But all you really need to know, you’ll see
At the end of the note when you read
Love, Me
The floor boards creaked beneath my feet
As I watched across your porch
I’m not sure what I was doing there
But I knew I’d never felt this brave before
As I walked a little closer, my heart beating fast
I knew in that second that I couldn’t go back
I knew I couldn’t leave
At least not before I left you a little piece of my heart
‘Cause I’ve come too far to let the moment slip away
Thinking too much about what I want to say
So I carry this note between my hands and my heart, hoping someday you will understand
All those words I’ve never said
Words like you and words like me and every little thing I’ve been feeling in between
But all you really need to know, you’ll see
At the end of the note when you read
Love, Me
I was so worried I’d lose my breathe
That was always the affect you’d had on me
But I just couldn’t keep these feelings to myself
Through all these years, thinking all that we could be
‘Cause I’ve come too far to let the moment slip away
Thinking too much about what I want to say
So I carry this note between my hands and my heart, hoping someday you will understand
All those words I’ve never said
Words like you and words like me and every little thing I’ve been feeling in between
But all you really need to know, you’ll see
At the end of the note when you read
Love, Me
‘Cause I’ve come too far to let the moment slip away
Thinking too much about what I want to say
So I carry this note between my hands and my heart, hoping someday you will understand
All those words I’ve never said
Words like you and words like me and every little thing I’ve been feeling in between
But all you really need to know, you’ll see
At the end of the note when you read
Love, Me
Love, Me…
Love, Me…
Love, Me…
Maybe someday you’ll see…
[Photo via Abby Sharp]
LiLu says
I really need to get a notebook. I scribble things down in my BBerry, in Gmail, on my iPhone, on scraps of paper stuffed in my purse… it's bad.
And this was lovely. 🙂
Melissa Blake says
I know what you mean. I have sheets of paper all over the place. Sometimes I can't even decipher my own handwriting! 😉